We danced and I touched your hand and when we sat next to each other you touched my thigh and smiled and I nearly cried when I realised you just wanted me to look at someone else

and I was lying with my head on your legs begging you never to move

we talked for hours I think. I nearly even sounded like I do in my head. and I smiled and you in the dark and I think you even smiled back but I can't see in the dark, I'm blind, the world fades to a sickening shade of gray and I get a little scared sometimes. and I sounded nearly right and then you went quiet and I had to change the song to make up an excuse for staying up and talk to you.

I fell asleep in the grass wondering why you didn't hold your arms around me.

you smiled at me the next day too, though.

And then when it was time to finish off the day you left without saying goodbye, but don't worry, I know when I'm going to see you again and it's not far away