I don't know. Somehow it all seems like such a twisted way of living. Why should I deny myself what I want? But I know exactly what I want but I can't get it.

I see your smile in my dreams, it's
haunting, it
reminds me of sunsets and white wine and grass and strokes of paint on a black background
I
wanted to hold your hand if
only for a second
like I did so many times in my dreams
I
wanted just one moment of knowledge, just
one glimpse of the truth, I
just want to know if
you want me too